No more mind drug
No more captivity
No more a slug
No more inactivity
I can think and write
There are ideas and activity
My mind is clear and bright
I have vision and creativity
What satisfaction
A few words in print
My words have interaction
Now I am on a sprint
Create a poem every day
For long as it lasts
And a long time I pray
But there are no hard forecasts
Maybe restart my novel
It is all in my head
I will not fall apart and grovel
Just forge ahead
I am optimistic about my ability
I know what I want to generate
I have so many possibilities
I have to accept my fate
Just create a rhyme
And let them grow
Let the words climb
Creating a sweet flow
The Drug
Amitriptyline
Is my drug
Not really crystalline
I think like a slug
So very very dragging
So very very hampered
So very very lagging
So very very hammered
I can not think
I can not write
I can not read
I can not understand
I can walk
I can talk
I can exercise
I can drive
A trade off
Lose the crazy woes
Do not unbelieve or scoff
Or live in the shadows
Easier to be alone
Easier to hideaway
Easier to be my own
Easier to live that way
Live in solitary
Or to fight the darkness
I am my adversary
What a starkness
To live in society
Amitriptyline is required
To end anxiety
A new life is desired
Slow with limited derailments
Sleep too much
Drugged but no aliments
Amitriptyline is a crutch
Last time 10 mg
Then 20 and 30 mg
Then 40 to 70 mg
All the way to 80 mg
In the end
It began shirking
No more dividends
And it quit working
Better for awhile
To have some assistance
A pleasant smile
And a healthy existence
There’s no way to describe how great God is or how much God loves you. I’m sitting at the beach after finishing my mini-book that’s free right now on Amazon and my first book of poetry which is in pre-order on Amazon. I do not have the link to both of them right now but if you go search on Amazon Conrad Birmingham goes right to them. This book is a compilation of my poems for last 10 years s uphowing my life. I guess it’s really an autobiography, but I did not see it that way when I was writing the poems or the book.
I’ve learned a lot from these writing experiences. I’ve learned:
1. Slow down. Enjoy each day. Live this day to the fullest.
2. Everything should be about God. I know that’s hard. I know you can’t be perfect because of Adam and Eve. You need to try to do the best you can and repent of your sins when you can’t be what God wants you to be.
3. Give more than you take. I wish I gave more when I was younger than I took. All of my relationships would have been better and healthier. I know that’s comes through wisdom which comes from the fear of God. Praise the Lord
So in summary?
1. What can you do today right now to make your life better?
2. What can you do right now to give mercy to others and to make their lives better?
3. How can you honor God more right now today, right this second?
