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Oligarchy

Oligarchy

A Republic
A Democracy
An Oligarchy
An Aristocracy

What are we
Who runs us
Are we free
What is the fuss

I can tell you
A government ran by a few
We should be bitter and blue
But who understood and knew

We live our lives
Enjoying it all
And our kids and wives
As long as we play ball

Everything is fine
Until you ask real questions
And lights will shine
On the underlying tensions

Small groups control
Our economy and government
Remember the grassy knoll 
And all the other uppercuts

These groups are self seeking
And they are underhanded
Lying when they are speaking
Stealing all they have demanded

This is the rule of the elite
The rule of the nobility
The rule of cronyism
And the rule of nepotism

A leadership class rules
Stealing everything
Thinking we are fools
Accepting their sting

Sting of war
Sting of economic disaster
Sting of epidemic
Sting of climate crisis

The same people rule our country
And is it better or worse
Neither are we hungry
Nor are resources scarce

But for many they are both
There are riots in the streets
Crime and murder that we loath
Brough to you by the cheats

Mark my words
It is too late
They will reduce us by thirds
And that is our fate

Black Lives Matter

“Abortion Wars: Kill the Supreme Court Justices” by Conrad Birmingham –

“One of the most alarming chapters of this story is the number of black abortions in the United States. Thirty percent of the black population has been aborted over the past fifty years. That is 18 million babies aborted. This is an enormous, horrific number. The real story is why there is no outcry from black leaders, especially the Black Live Movement, religious leaders, and liberal democrats. Why do they ignore these horrible, despicable statistics?”

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Slave

Slave

I am a slave
To my thoughts
Stuffed in a cave
I had my shots

Stuck here
Wasting away
Not a seer
Wishing to stray

I stayed for a girl
And her daughter
We had a twirl
Not living water

I stayed for my mother
Who is her golden years
Illnesses one after another
Outliving her peers


I stayed for my health
I fight craziness
No problems with wealth
Persistent haziness

A new phenomenon
Snuck up on me
A black swan
A dead sea

I can not inhale
I can not exercise
I can not exhale
I can not energize

Doctors do not know
What is the matter
Go with the flow
Endless chatter

Stuck in this place
Waiting it out
My time and space
I have doubt

Doubt of today
Doubt of relationship
Doubt of future
Doubt of fraternity
A slave to my existence
Waiting for it to end
I am leading the residence
Nothing to pretend

My relationship is over
My health is questionable
My mother will die
My life is debatable

Pretend I might
Fight I must
Chase the light
All in or bust

Fix what is wrong
Seek the solutions
Remain strong
Proclaim resolutions

Resolution to try
Resolutions to strive
Resolution to fly
Resolution to live

Might change your expectations
Might change your attitude
Might rearrange your foundation
Might rearrange your fortitude

It is not finished
It never will be
It is not diminished
It is what you see

See the good
See the opportunities
See your livelihood
See your communities

There is a view
For you to move ahead
It is up to you
You are not dead

Change

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I need a change
To make me whole
Why exchange
My current role
 
I am not appreciated
I am a man child
I am depressed and deflated
I am forgotten in exile
 
I have an opinion
I keep to myself
Just a tiny minion
Not being myself
 
I need to stand up
But then I am immature
And we breakup
And there is no cure
 
I can walk away
What does it prove
To exit the fray
As my opening move
 
But this is hard
I am weak going to ground
Getting lonely and scared
Growing lifeless and down
 
Will I miss my buddy
Just waiting and moping
Way too hard and bloody
Just hoping
 
I wish it could be
A life with her
I have made my plea
She does not concur
 
Instead of pouting
And being blue
Your life needs rerouting
To make it through
 
Concentrate on me
Setting new priorities
I am single and free
With no authorities
  
I am off my medication
Planning to travel
Not a vacation
Just to unravel
 
My mind and thoughts
Through reading and writing
Connecting the dots
And keep on fighting
 
Fighting for what is right
Which can be a debate
Not worth the bite
I am not a piece of bait
 
I am not a fish or insect
I am a strong man
I stand erect
I need a plan
 
Get my health straight
And create multiple verses
Remove dead weight
Solve any reverses
 
What needs to shift
To execute your plan
Become a spendthrift
And a bad food ban
 
Walk even if it hurts
A health goal
And do not chase skirts
So you keep control
 
Do not be in a rush
Solve all concerns
Work through the slush
And reap the returns
 
The goodwill produced
Relations restored
I will get a needed boost
Along with a great reward
 
My plan will be ready
To shift my gaze
And to be steady
Through this new phase

Tools to Help me Live

I have struggled for years, and I have searched for tools to help me live better. I want tools to help me learn what triggers my symptoms and how to reset the triggers as quickly as possible.

I have had ongoing issues for years, and no physical defects can be found beyond repaired damage to knee and hips along with blood clots. I have fallen backward; my neck hurts, my head hurts, my eyes get stressed, my head goes blank, my body wobbles, and many other little nuisances. No one has given me solutions to these issues except to drug me up and to make me into a zombie. I don’t particularly appreciate living this way. If anything, this lifestyle drives anxiety and depression, which activates, compounds, and exaggerated my issues.

The diagnosis of Functional Neurological Disorder (FND) opens new avenues to explore, including Cognitive behavior Theory and Dialectical behavior therapy (DBT). I am exploring these two tools, and I am seeking counselors to help me learn these tools and to apply them to my life.

Cognitive behavior therapy (CBT) is based on several core principles, including:

1. Psychological problems are based, in part, on faulty or unhelpful ways of thinking.

2. Psychological problems are based, in part, on learned patterns of unhelpful behavior.

3. People suffering from psychological problems can learn better ways of coping with them, thereby relieving their symptoms and becoming more effective in their lives.

https://www.apa.org/ptsd-guideline/patients-and-families/cognitive-behavioral#

Dialectical behavior therapy (DBT) is a type of cognitive-behavioral therapy. Its main goals are to teach people how to live in the moment, develop healthy ways to cope with stress, regulate their emotions, and improve their relationships with others.

https://www.verywellmind.com/dialectical-behavior-therapy-1067402#citation-1

The Linehan Institute Behavioral Tech. What Is Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT)? 2017.

I plan to write more about my journey, trying to understand these tools and how they are working to make my life better. I will add posts about other tools that I use to help, including breathing exercises, writing, exercising, and yoga—also, a post here and there about God and his provision for me. These tools and exercises do not compete with God. To me, they are the fruit of God’s existence.

I hope they may help you if you have sprouts of anxiety or depression.

Have any of you had any experiences with CBT or DBT? Did it help?