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My Old Friend

I missed you
My good friend
We can share a pew
And transcend

Transcend my feelings
My feelings of obscurity
In all routine dealings
Reducing my security

Fall left to right
Shift backwards
The sun so bright
Unable to say words

Where do you hide
In the summertime
Where do you reside
Rushing back time after time

To disrupt my life
Bewitching me
Causing such strife
Not letting me flee

Fleeing the troubles
Fleeing the nuisance
Fleeing the intangibles
Fleeing the assurance

Assurances of stability
Assurances of normality
Assurances of survivability
Assurances of congeniality

I become tired
I become annoyed
I become angered
I become destroyed

Hard to accept
This reoccurring crap
Not well kept
In this sinister trap

Trap of denial
Trap of betrayal
Trap of carnal
Trap of abnormal

This is not just
Give me relief
Can you adjust
And reduce your grief

You must
No other choice
Or you will rust
And lose your voice

Stay steady
Bulk up
Reduce your anxiety
Accept your cup

Hope and Expectations

  Dare I raise my hope
 Or raise my expectations
 Set me up to be a dope
 How about the flirtations
  
 Do I expect her to realize
 We are made for each other
 And I am better than most guys
 Why do I want to bother
  
 To beg her forgiveness
 To seek her approval
 To deduce her restiveness
 To change her disproval
  
 Push her to decide
 To spend time with me
 Is it mine and her pride
 Which is the key
  
 Or is it stupidity
 To keep on hoping
 When she demonstrates lividity
 And I am just coping
  
 I miss our time together
 She says the same
 How can we tether
 Our mutual claim
  
 Leave her alone
 Live your life
 She has a phone
 No more strife
  
 Strife in myself
 Strife in her actions
 Strife in our childness
 Strife in the whole thing
  
 I know we would have fun
 We are so good just us
 Why does it have to be done
 What is the real fuss
  
 I do not know
 Questioning her decision
 Creating a senseless row
 A gigantic collision
    
 She is in control
 So let her go
 And make some goals
 Just go with the flow
  
 Not your best suit
 To play it by ear
 It might be the best route
 Learn to be a seer
  
 Able to visualize
 What decisions are best
 There may be a prize
 If I passed the test
  
 No matter what
 My life will be less
 But not in a rut
 Just some distress
  
 So what is it
 Hope that is confused
 Expectations that fit
 Reconciliation refused
  
 Or is it craziness
 To let it rule
 Making me melancholy
 So stop being a fool