My writing
Turtle
A funny creature
Minding its own business
A wonderful teacher
With its adventurousness
This guy wandered the beach
Chasing you down
Like a leech
Just moving around
The turtle came for food
To each group of people
What a begging dude
As long as food was accessible
I gave it salad
From my picnic lunch
The turtle was delighted
With impromptu brunch
After it’s meal
The turtle moved on
Looking out for a new deal
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Need to Promote My Writing
I have started writing again. I am no longer on my medicine, and I have written a second book of poetry.
https://amzn.to/3kPQZL4
I hope you enjoy my poems. Here is one I wrote the other day:
I Do Not Know
I do not know
I do not understand
I do not accept the status quo
I do not make demands
Lost and alone
Lost and needy
Lost in groans
Very greedy
Selfish
Hurtful
Jealous
Ungrateful
I search
I chase
In church
In your face
I am not fair
I am not emphatic
Not that I do not care
Not to cause static
My every intention
Is to be loved
Not an intervention
Or to be shoved
But in goodwill
Honest and true
Neither a windmill
Nor a zoo
Help me Lord
Settle down
Not with a sword
Or to shutdown
Honest retrospect
Heartfelt transmission
Giving respect
Honest admission
Of my faults
Of my weaknesses
Of my assaults
To my Jesus
Let me bow
Let me repent
Worship thou
End my torment
Restore my heart
According to your will
I need a fresh start
Make my path downhill
Easy to travel
Easy to see
Less prone to unravel
With a skeleton key
Unlock the doors
Make my way
On all fours
So I can pray
Heavenly Father
Forgive me
Bless my sister
Hear my plea
Hear
In Jesus name
My sins disappear
Without shame
I am new
Today everyday
No blame
Without decay
Holy Spirit
Filled
Explicit
Old life killed
Written by: Conrad Birmingham
All my thoughts Are influenced by the Bible Plagiarism in spots Am I possibly libel I do not know But I have read it many times There is not unique prose We are not voiceless mimes The story of Christ And how to share his love Spliced and sliced It is all from above Above in God God allows it Applaud His grand skit I apologize If I copy or paraphrase I want to emphasize I want to give God praise Not copy you Or steal your work I like your view Am I a jerk I do not think so I am true To whom I owe My gracious renew God saved me Through his Son I am free And it is done I have to spread the news Jesus is the way I want no one to lose The possibility of today Find Jesus today Repent today Seek forgiveness today Believe in Jesus today Jesus is Lord And God raised him from the dead The gospel is not a sword Just everlasting bread Bread of Life Life everlasting Not senseless strife Jesus is worth broadcasting If I use your writing In an inappropriate fashion I am not fighting Full of passion To share with sincerity To praise their glory To explain with clarity To share the greatest story
I have struggled for years, and I have searched for tools to help me live better. I want tools to help me learn what triggers my symptoms and how to reset the triggers as quickly as possible.
I have had ongoing issues for years, and no physical defects can be found beyond repaired damage to knee and hips along with blood clots. I have fallen backward; my neck hurts, my head hurts, my eyes get stressed, my head goes blank, my body wobbles, and many other little nuisances. No one has given me solutions to these issues except to drug me up and to make me into a zombie. I don’t particularly appreciate living this way. If anything, this lifestyle drives anxiety and depression, which activates, compounds, and exaggerated my issues.
The diagnosis of Functional Neurological Disorder (FND) opens new avenues to explore, including Cognitive behavior Theory and Dialectical behavior therapy (DBT). I am exploring these two tools, and I am seeking counselors to help me learn these tools and to apply them to my life.
Cognitive behavior therapy (CBT) is based on several core principles, including:
1. Psychological problems are based, in part, on faulty or unhelpful ways of thinking.
2. Psychological problems are based, in part, on learned patterns of unhelpful behavior.
3. People suffering from psychological problems can learn better ways of coping with them, thereby relieving their symptoms and becoming more effective in their lives.
https://www.apa.org/ptsd-guideline/patients-and-families/cognitive-behavioral#
Dialectical behavior therapy (DBT) is a type of cognitive-behavioral therapy. Its main goals are to teach people how to live in the moment, develop healthy ways to cope with stress, regulate their emotions, and improve their relationships with others.
https://www.verywellmind.com/dialectical-behavior-therapy-1067402#citation-1
The Linehan Institute Behavioral Tech. What Is Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT)? 2017.
I plan to write more about my journey, trying to understand these tools and how they are working to make my life better. I will add posts about other tools that I use to help, including breathing exercises, writing, exercising, and yoga—also, a post here and there about God and his provision for me. These tools and exercises do not compete with God. To me, they are the fruit of God’s existence.
I hope they may help you if you have sprouts of anxiety or depression.
Have any of you had any experiences with CBT or DBT? Did it help?
People in Your Life People come and go Part of our life And it is so Some through strife Harder for some To keep it together Always so dumb Bad or fair weather Prideful Arrogant Selfish Belligerent To name a few But more to ask for If you care to view Here are more Life circumstances Life traumas Life illnesses Life mysteries All kinds of reasons To be a jerk In all seasons To go berserk How you act Is how you are framed Try to use tact Or you get blamed You cannot hide For exceptionally long Sooner or later you slide You are not that strong To keep it at bay To keep it hidden To keep it suppressed To keep it smothered Useless effort Try to isolate To be better Is one trait Force others away So be by yourself No one to play Just pictures on the shelf A lonely crutch To protect your outbursts People are too much These are not unique firsts Social distancing Endless therapy Countless medicines Retreats and asylums Doctors galore Psychobabble What a bore Good for the rabble But the worse cases Must be dumbed down See it in their faces The emotionless frowns Pump them with drugs To make them acceptable No longer thugs Almost respectable They might be slow They might drool They might be lazy They might be dim But they are tamed They can be presented And beautifully framed Sat in the corner ornamented I do not want to be dampened I do not want to be unnoticed I do not want to be a simpleton I do not want to be devalued But to live in peace To live with immunity To live it must cease To live in unity Cease the anger Cease the explosion Cease the banter Cease the implosion Make a choice Or stay in a cave And listen to your own voice And be your own slave