Dare I raise my hope
Or raise my expectations
Set me up to be a dope
How about the flirtations
Do I expect her to realize
We are made for each other
And I am better than most guys
Why do I want to bother
To beg her forgiveness
To seek her approval
To deduce her restiveness
To change her disproval
Push her to decide
To spend time with me
Is it mine and her pride
Which is the key
Or is it stupidity
To keep on hoping
When she demonstrates lividity
And I am just coping
I miss our time together
She says the same
How can we tether
Our mutual claim
Leave her alone
Live your life
She has a phone
No more strife
Strife in myself
Strife in her actions
Strife in our childness
Strife in the whole thing
I know we would have fun
We are so good just us
Why does it have to be done
What is the real fuss
I do not know
Questioning her decision
Creating a senseless row
A gigantic collision
She is in control
So let her go
And make some goals
Just go with the flow
Not your best suit
To play it by ear
It might be the best route
Learn to be a seer
Able to visualize
What decisions are best
There may be a prize
If I passed the test
No matter what
My life will be less
But not in a rut
Just some distress
So what is it
Hope that is confused
Expectations that fit
Reconciliation refused
Or is it craziness
To let it rule
Making me melancholy
So stop being a fool
My heart hurts
Was it love
Or too many desserts
Or God from above
Does it matter
Why I cannot take a breath
My heart goes pitter patter
Along the path to my death
How did I get here
After exercising too much
Did I cause too much wear
Or is this a crutch
Did I eat the wrong food
Mostly salads and meat
Pizza when in the mood
Along with something sweet
Ice cream and cake
Cookie dough with glaze
Maybe a shake
I did graze
Food or exercise
The doctors do not know
I wonder if they are wise
Or trying to collect dough
Test after test
What do they show
Nothing in my chest
Maye my heart flow
More tests and protocols
To see if my veins are clear
Just wait for our calls
And keep a good cheer
Sometimes it is hard
To be enthusiastic
When you cannot walk the yard
Or anything too drastic
I cannot breathe when I piss
I cannot breathe climbing up the stairs
I cannot breathe to walk the block
I cannot breathe playing in the pool
These are not drastic actions
And it is very tough
No to have reactions
When I cannot get a puff of air
I walked 10000 steps daily
I lifted weights daily
I used the elliptical for 30 minutes daily
I performed yoga every two days
What happened to me
Will it go away
Can they fix this stuff
Or keep it at bay
I do wonder
Can it be fixed
Or do I go under
My thoughts are mixed
Issues upon issues
Troubles upon troubles
Stress upon stress
Anxiety upon anxiety
Thinking can be worse
Worrying for naught
Or is this a curse
And I got caught
Or is it a side effect
Of a Covid shot
Is there a connect
Throwing it all in the pot
Heart inflammation
They do say
Maybe a causation
To take me astray
My shot in late March
My condition sometime in April
Is there a connecting arch
Or is this gossip or a fable
