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I Never Dreamed


I never dreamed
Someone from my past
Feelings redeemed
So much time has passed

I kept up with her
We would always be friends
She would concurr
Our friendship transcends

We have reconnected
Both being single
We have redirected
For us to mingle

She watched me sail
Commenting along the way
I called her instead of email
Just not any comminique

We talked for hours
Just about everything
She must have superpowers
She was so addicting

We communicated frequently
Four or five times a day
I enjoyed her evidently
Because she was so gay

She was brilliant
She was happy
She was exciting
She was captivating

I wanted more
I wanted that energy
I wanted to explore
I wanted synergy

I asked her out
And she agreed
What a rout
I decreed

Too smooth
Too slick
Too easy
Too sleek

We were so agreeable
I was flabbergasted
Our future is unforeseeable
And it was not forecasted

Now a new journey
Where will we go
A magnificent tourney
Only God will know

My Old Friend

I missed you
My good friend
We can share a pew
And transcend

Transcend my feelings
My feelings of obscurity
In all routine dealings
Reducing my security

Fall left to right
Shift backwards
The sun so bright
Unable to say words

Where do you hide
In the summertime
Where do you reside
Rushing back time after time

To disrupt my life
Bewitching me
Causing such strife
Not letting me flee

Fleeing the troubles
Fleeing the nuisance
Fleeing the intangibles
Fleeing the assurance

Assurances of stability
Assurances of normality
Assurances of survivability
Assurances of congeniality

I become tired
I become annoyed
I become angered
I become destroyed

Hard to accept
This reoccurring crap
Not well kept
In this sinister trap

Trap of denial
Trap of betrayal
Trap of carnal
Trap of abnormal

This is not just
Give me relief
Can you adjust
And reduce your grief

You must
No other choice
Or you will rust
And lose your voice

Stay steady
Bulk up
Reduce your anxiety
Accept your cup

Remember

close up shot of a map with small pieces of flowers
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 I remember
 When I was younger
 I was a member
 And did not hunger
  
 I was strong
 I was healthy and fit
 I sang a happy song
 I had my wit
  
 I did not worry
 For my health
 I was in a hurry
 To make my wealth
  
 This was my affiliation
 Make money and win
 Part of a capitalistic nation
 But this was a sin
  
 To chase money
 Forgetting the rest
 It was not sunny
 Much distress
  
 I wanted it all
 But pursuing wealth
 Created a great brawl
 Lurking with stealth
  
 Destroyed relations
 Forgotten friends
 Missed donations
 Not making amends
  
 Strained relationships
 Desensitized to everyone
 Emotionless trip
 Kindness and empathy none
  
 Emotions scattered
 Health in ruin
 Definitely battered
 Ready to be done in
  
 Life falls apart
 Little by little
 Leading to a bad heart
 So brittle
  
 But I am an associate
 Paying taxes and voting
 A member of our capitalist state
 But I am not gloating
  
  
 I forgot the truth
 I forgot the guidelines
 I forgot the nursery rhymes
 I forgot the wisdom books
  
 A wealth of knowledge
 I learned long ago
 I must acknowledge
 I did know
  
 Charity
 Forgiveness
 Compassion
 Moderation
  
 Why did I not
 Live a life
 That I was taught
 Without conflict and strife
  
 Was I needy
 Was I selfish
 Was I greedy
 Was I foolish
  
 Yes
 I can agree
 I made a mess
 I was privileged and free
  
 Why did I need more
 Why could I not be happy
 Why did I war
 Why was I snappy
  
 Who cares
 All that is gone
 Drop your airs
 Today is a new dawn
  
 Life is here
 And kind
 Listen and hear
 Open your mind
  
 To another earth
 One of jubilation
 Allowing a rebirth
 Out of damnation
  
 To a life of fraternity
 Remembering community
 Now and for eternity
 My new opportunity