Shift
Left to right
Forward and back
Dark to bright
Run to tack
There are many ways to go
And I must change
Do not go with the flow
I must turn the page
Leave Jackson
Do not be shocked
Viking or saxon
Not land locked
A new journey
Sailing away
Leaving absurdity
A new sunset everyday
My intent
My want
My plan
My desire
At sixty not too late
To transition
A new journey and fate
A grand ambition
But wait
Who is this girl
That I went on a date
Her hair has so much curl
I am smitten
By her beauty and enthusiasm
Maybe sailing is not written
She has to be an addendum
My plan b has crumpled
Moving to plan c
My arrogance humbled
I now can see
I want her in my life
And she makes me laugh
With no crazy strife
I want to be her better half
In this moment
In this time
In this minute
In this space
I will pursue her
Wanting to know if she is real
Not some imaginary blur
And my feelings are real
Sailing will be there
But I can not let this pass
I am chasing that wild hair
And this charming lass
There is so much opportunity
There is so much promise
There is so much compassion
There is so much expectation
Go all in
Do not miss the chance
I can only laugh and grin
A sailboat can not kiss or dance
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Battle of Nerves vs Mental
Battle of Nerves vs Mental What to do next I wander about I am perplexed I want to shout Leave me alone Let me be I want to moan But then there is she She is Smart Girl She will not let me quit She is a rare precious pearl She has much grit You are fine You are curable Quit your whine You are endurable Your lungs sing a song Your heart is exceptionally good Your muscles are strong You are a forest of maple wood You fall and almost fall You have bouts and seasons Where you hit a wall Without any reasons No one has diagnosed you Telling you anything No reason to worry and stew Anxiety and depression sting Worse than your illness Quit being an awful bore Live each day in its brilliance Open the morning door and roar Life is noble and grand Life is pleasing and sweet Life is unexplored land Life is a delicious treat Smart Girl wants to pursue Conversion disorder and Functional neurological disorder Which is fine with me The brain and nervous mechanisms Do not efficiently communicate Resulting in many schisms In my neurological state Somewhere between nerves and mental Everyone knows I am crazy But let us not be judgmental We all can be a little hazy Good news I believe Continue the medical journey Looking for reprieve After six years of a debilitating tourney What is a year or two more Smart Girl motivates me To continue the unfair war And I agree