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Where Have I Been

Where have I been
I do not know
Not trying to be mean
Just not with the flow

I have avoided my website
For the whole year
Was it a fight
Or not very dear

I had things to say
Writing a new book
Posting on Facebook each day
I did not look

Living life
Chasing a sailboat
A potential new wife
I did not promote

Myself
And my blog
Left all on the shelf
I feel like a dog

Pure laziness
No motivation
Almost craziness
It has to be frustration

With no audience
Not finishing my novel
It is obvious
I did grovel

Not doing my best
Scared and afraid
I did not pass the test
Or make the grade

But it is time
To start a coup
I can make life rhyme
And start anew

Write my novel routinely
Post on the website weekly
Create a feeling of serenely
Using my voice uniquely

Make it a passion
Write to my heart is content
Do not stop or ration
So I have nothing to lament

Shift

Shift

Left to right
Forward and back
Dark to bright
Run to tack

There are many ways to go
And I must change
Do not go with the flow
I must turn the page

Leave Jackson
Do not be shocked
Viking or saxon
Not land locked

A new journey
Sailing away
Leaving absurdity
A new sunset everyday

My intent
My want
My plan
My desire

At sixty not too late
To transition
A new journey and fate
A grand ambition

But wait
Who is this girl
That I went on a date
Her hair has so much curl

I am smitten
By her beauty and enthusiasm
Maybe sailing is not written
She has to be an addendum

My plan b has crumpled
Moving to plan c
My arrogance humbled
I now can see

I want her in my life
And she makes me laugh
With no crazy strife
I want to be her better half

In this moment
In this time
In this minute
In this space

I will pursue her
Wanting to know if she is real
Not some imaginary blur
And my feelings are real

Sailing will be there
But I can not let this pass
I am chasing that wild hair
And this charming lass

There is so much opportunity
There is so much promise
There is so much compassion
There is so much expectation

Go all in
Do not miss the chance
I can only laugh and grin
A sailboat can not kiss or dance

Change

volcano erupting at night under starry sky
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I need a change
To make me whole
Why exchange
My current role
 
I am not appreciated
I am a man child
I am depressed and deflated
I am forgotten in exile
 
I have an opinion
I keep to myself
Just a tiny minion
Not being myself
 
I need to stand up
But then I am immature
And we breakup
And there is no cure
 
I can walk away
What does it prove
To exit the fray
As my opening move
 
But this is hard
I am weak going to ground
Getting lonely and scared
Growing lifeless and down
 
Will I miss my buddy
Just waiting and moping
Way too hard and bloody
Just hoping
 
I wish it could be
A life with her
I have made my plea
She does not concur
 
Instead of pouting
And being blue
Your life needs rerouting
To make it through
 
Concentrate on me
Setting new priorities
I am single and free
With no authorities
  
I am off my medication
Planning to travel
Not a vacation
Just to unravel
 
My mind and thoughts
Through reading and writing
Connecting the dots
And keep on fighting
 
Fighting for what is right
Which can be a debate
Not worth the bite
I am not a piece of bait
 
I am not a fish or insect
I am a strong man
I stand erect
I need a plan
 
Get my health straight
And create multiple verses
Remove dead weight
Solve any reverses
 
What needs to shift
To execute your plan
Become a spendthrift
And a bad food ban
 
Walk even if it hurts
A health goal
And do not chase skirts
So you keep control
 
Do not be in a rush
Solve all concerns
Work through the slush
And reap the returns
 
The goodwill produced
Relations restored
I will get a needed boost
Along with a great reward
 
My plan will be ready
To shift my gaze
And to be steady
Through this new phase