Alive
You are alive
Animated
A beehive
Exhilarated
Look at your face
You smile shines
Not a trace
Of worldly confines
Exciting
Titillating
Breathtaking
Electrifying
You captivate a room
So bubbly and fresh
A flower in bloom
Beaming outside your flesh
Everyone notices
They are drawn to your energy
Simply dazzling and amazes
Special mysterious alchemy
Your charm
Your power
Your presence
Your attractiveness
Everyone wants you
To steal your vigor
Because they are blue
Playing a fool and poor actor
You are spontaneous
So alive in your spirit
Your harmonious
With this grand merit
I want it too
Since I was fifteen
Constantly trying to renew
Feelings for a girl at fourteen
I have my chance
To suck her marrow
Maybe by happenstance
But I have climbed the plateau
And I am not coming down
To be a mere mortal
I am on here playground
And I too will be adorable
Tag: can do
Who Is She
Who Is She
Happy
Gay
Enthusiastic
Optimistic
She is a lightening beam
Her own liturgy
I can only dream
So full.of energy
Why is she alone
No one has claimed her
She is not owned
By a mister or sir
Probably her choice
She is strong
With her own voice
She knows right from wrong
She wants a companion
Just like me
Who will not abandon
An attentive attendee
To life
To grief
To celebration
To sorrow
She wants comfort
So do I
She want to be unhurt
And not cry
She wants gaiety
She wants merriment
She wants playfulness
She wants levity
We all want this
We do much research
Along with a kiss
And we search and search
Giving up hope
This person will never be found
And I am no dope
To catch someone on the rebound
Please God give me a chance
To find love and contentment
Along with romance
And adornment”
Shift
Shift
Left to right
Forward and back
Dark to bright
Run to tack
There are many ways to go
And I must change
Do not go with the flow
I must turn the page
Leave Jackson
Do not be shocked
Viking or saxon
Not land locked
A new journey
Sailing away
Leaving absurdity
A new sunset everyday
My intent
My want
My plan
My desire
At sixty not too late
To transition
A new journey and fate
A grand ambition
But wait
Who is this girl
That I went on a date
Her hair has so much curl
I am smitten
By her beauty and enthusiasm
Maybe sailing is not written
She has to be an addendum
My plan b has crumpled
Moving to plan c
My arrogance humbled
I now can see
I want her in my life
And she makes me laugh
With no crazy strife
I want to be her better half
In this moment
In this time
In this minute
In this space
I will pursue her
Wanting to know if she is real
Not some imaginary blur
And my feelings are real
Sailing will be there
But I can not let this pass
I am chasing that wild hair
And this charming lass
There is so much opportunity
There is so much promise
There is so much compassion
There is so much expectation
Go all in
Do not miss the chance
I can only laugh and grin
A sailboat can not kiss or dance
The Drug
The Drug Amitriptyline Is my drug Not really crystalline I think like a slug So very very dragging So very very hampered So very very lagging So very very hammered I can not think I can not write I can not read I can not understand I can walk I can talk I can exercise I can drive A trade off Lose the crazy woes Do not unbelieve or scoff Or live in the shadows Easier to be alone Easier to hideaway Easier to be my own Easier to live that way Live in solitary Or to fight the darkness I am my adversary What a starkness To live in society Amitriptyline is required To end anxiety A new life is desired Slow with limited derailments Sleep too much Drugged but no aliments Amitriptyline is a crutch Last time 10 mg Then 20 and 30 mg Then 40 to 70 mg All the way to 80 mg In the end It began shirking No more dividends And it quit working Better for awhile To have some assistance A pleasant smile And a healthy existence