My Old Friend

I missed you
My good friend 
We can share a pew
And transcend

Transcend my feelings
My feelings of obscurity
In all routine dealings
Reducing my security 

Fall left to right
Shift backwards
The sun so bright
Unable to say words

Where do you hide
In the summertime
Where do you reside
Rushing back time after time

To disrupt my life
Bewitching me
Causing such strife
Not letting me flee

Fleeing the troubles
Fleeing the nuisance
Fleeing the intangibles
Fleeing the assurance

Assurances of stability
Assurances of normality
Assurances of survivability 
Assurances of congeniality

I become tired
I become annoyed
I become angered
I become destroyed

Hard to accept
This reoccurring crap
Not well kept
In this sinister trap

Trap of denial 
Trap of betrayal 
Trap of carnal
Trap of  abnormal

This is not just
Give me relief
Can you adjust
And reduce your grief

You must 
No other choice
Or you will rust
And lose your voice

Stay steady
Bulk up
Reduce your anxiety 
Accept your cup