I am a bore
Very whinny
A word whore
Not funny
Why tell people your troubles
When they got their own
They do not live in a bubble
Or made of stone
They have feelings
And they have needs
Listen to their dealings
And their life deeds
Turn the conversation around
Quit talking about yourself
And your constant frown
Leave your feelings on the shelf
Pour yourself into others
Be a blessing to them
Ask about their brothers and mothers
And what they have overcome
Offer them a prayer
Make it simple and plain
Something they can wear
To reduce their pain
My feelings will improve
Making it about you
A good positive move
Long overdo
Dare I raise my hope
Or raise my expectations
Set me up to be a dope
How about the flirtations
Do I expect her to realize
We are made for each other
And I am better than most guys
Why do I want to bother
To beg her forgiveness
To seek her approval
To deduce her restiveness
To change her disproval
Push her to decide
To spend time with me
Is it mine and her pride
Which is the key
Or is it stupidity
To keep on hoping
When she demonstrates lividity
And I am just coping
I miss our time together
She says the same
How can we tether
Our mutual claim
Leave her alone
Live your life
She has a phone
No more strife
Strife in myself
Strife in her actions
Strife in our childness
Strife in the whole thing
I know we would have fun
We are so good just us
Why does it have to be done
What is the real fuss
I do not know
Questioning her decision
Creating a senseless row
A gigantic collision
She is in control
So let her go
And make some goals
Just go with the flow
Not your best suit
To play it by ear
It might be the best route
Learn to be a seer
Able to visualize
What decisions are best
There may be a prize
If I passed the test
No matter what
My life will be less
But not in a rut
Just some distress
So what is it
Hope that is confused
Expectations that fit
Reconciliation refused
Or is it craziness
To let it rule
Making me melancholy
So stop being a fool
I need a change
To make me whole
Why exchange
My current role
I am not appreciated
I am a man child
I am depressed and deflated
I am forgotten in exile
I have an opinion
I keep to myself
Just a tiny minion
Not being myself
I need to stand up
But then I am immature
And we breakup
And there is no cure
I can walk away
What does it prove
To exit the fray
As my opening move
But this is hard
I am weak going to ground
Getting lonely and scared
Growing lifeless and down
Will I miss my buddy
Just waiting and moping
Way too hard and bloody
Just hoping
I wish it could be
A life with her
I have made my plea
She does not concur
Instead of pouting
And being blue
Your life needs rerouting
To make it through
Concentrate on me
Setting new priorities
I am single and free
With no authorities
I am off my medication
Planning to travel
Not a vacation
Just to unravel
My mind and thoughts
Through reading and writing
Connecting the dots
And keep on fighting
Fighting for what is right
Which can be a debate
Not worth the bite
I am not a piece of bait
I am not a fish or insect
I am a strong man
I stand erect
I need a plan
Get my health straight
And create multiple verses
Remove dead weight
Solve any reverses
What needs to shift
To execute your plan
Become a spendthrift
And a bad food ban
Walk even if it hurts
A health goal
And do not chase skirts
So you keep control
Do not be in a rush
Solve all concerns
Work through the slush
And reap the returns
The goodwill produced
Relations restored
I will get a needed boost
Along with a great reward
My plan will be ready
To shift my gaze
And to be steady
Through this new phase
My heart hurts
Was it love
Or too many desserts
Or God from above
Does it matter
Why I cannot take a breath
My heart goes pitter patter
Along the path to my death
How did I get here
After exercising too much
Did I cause too much wear
Or is this a crutch
Did I eat the wrong food
Mostly salads and meat
Pizza when in the mood
Along with something sweet
Ice cream and cake
Cookie dough with glaze
Maybe a shake
I did graze
Food or exercise
The doctors do not know
I wonder if they are wise
Or trying to collect dough
Test after test
What do they show
Nothing in my chest
Maye my heart flow
More tests and protocols
To see if my veins are clear
Just wait for our calls
And keep a good cheer
Sometimes it is hard
To be enthusiastic
When you cannot walk the yard
Or anything too drastic
I cannot breathe when I piss
I cannot breathe climbing up the stairs
I cannot breathe to walk the block
I cannot breathe playing in the pool
These are not drastic actions
And it is very tough
No to have reactions
When I cannot get a puff of air
I walked 10000 steps daily
I lifted weights daily
I used the elliptical for 30 minutes daily
I performed yoga every two days
What happened to me
Will it go away
Can they fix this stuff
Or keep it at bay
I do wonder
Can it be fixed
Or do I go under
My thoughts are mixed
Issues upon issues
Troubles upon troubles
Stress upon stress
Anxiety upon anxiety
Thinking can be worse
Worrying for naught
Or is this a curse
And I got caught
Or is it a side effect
Of a Covid shot
Is there a connect
Throwing it all in the pot
Heart inflammation
They do say
Maybe a causation
To take me astray
My shot in late March
My condition sometime in April
Is there a connecting arch
Or is this gossip or a fable
I make too many assumptions
Which never work out
Maybe mixed presumptions
Ending in retreat and a rout
Putting everything into one thing
All my energy and emotions
For a yearlong romantic fling
Going through all the motions
The regular dating routines
And a few extra duties
Including helping to clean
Anything for my beauties
I became a caregiver
Helping out with carpools
Even cleaning the silver
Anything for my jewels
I taught after school
Doing weekly reading by committee
Helping enforce the daily rules
Anything for my pretties
Little physical chores
Picking up and putting up the plates
Even cleaning out drawers
Anything for my playmates
But in the long run
It does not matter
All is undone
A gigantic shatter
We break apart
Because there is no solution
The same problem from the start
A matter of the heart
Not really love
Honor and cherish
More push and shove
Close to nightmarish
Warning signs are there
I was a dope
Our relationship not fair
A sense of false hope
Hope for a friend
Hope for a companion
Hope for a sweetheart
Hope for love
I wanted it too much
I would do anything
For someone to touch
For a body to cling
Not her fault
I made the choice
Not to halt
And use my voice
To communicate
My feelings
Accepting my fate
In all my dealings
Be honest and straight
Stick to the facts
Open the floodgate
And brace for the impacts
Ready to walk away
Be courageous and strong
Do not waver and sway
If it is wrong
Too petrified and afraid
To face reality
Disheartened and dismayed
To fight and disagree
Who wants confrontation
And to dissension
Leading to castration
And no more attention
But sooner or later
All will come to an end
Bowing to a dictator
Instead of being a friend
Friends listen
Do not judge
Or create divisions
Stonewall without a budge
Who am I talking to
But only to me
I cannot change a view
From another who is free
