I wrote my book of poetry, https://amzn.to/2ZlNcuh and I left out one of the most important people in my life – Jim Lindberg. (I know of another which needs to be corrected Mr. George Harrison but I will get to that later) Here is my poem for Jim!
Jim
He was my boss I met him young Color gloss or semigloss What was his color
He was strong He was smart He was energetic He was old
Old at sixteen Anyone over twenty We were green Years to come aplenty
He taught us much Too much to list Always there in a clutch Able to assist
A great role model A great friend Would not let you dawdle Or lead down a dead-end
We were kids And we still played Just lift your eyelids And do not be afraid
See and envision Badminton galore Buckets of beer In his backyard
So much fun But the best Cannot be outdone Greater than all the rest
Zoom Schwartz Profigliano We sang these words No not soprano But as songbirds
To each other Around a table As each other’s brother This is not a fable
He taught us leadership He taught us friendship He taught us hard work He taught us rhyme and balance
Time for fun and toil Time for love Time to spoil Time for Him above
God was not manifest During these times As we followed our zest But now in our primes
We see each other at church Talk of God No need to search Neither is a fraud
Poquoson was there So many life impressions And with glorious prayer He taught the best sessions
My autobiography of poetry over the last fifty-eight years. Ha ha ha! I laugh too. I am a businessman who is retired, and he is trying to stay busy. I have no real talent at writing any type of writing except Quality Assurance Programs, Business Plans, Bible Study Notes, Business Price Quotes, Business Memos, Loan Requests, Consulting Reports, and all things business.
Uplifting Poems About the Death of a Loved One is a journey of my life, especially in the last five years. I have struggled through medical issues for these five years, including depression and anxiety. I am challenged with the belief that I have a disease that is not diagnosed, and I am going to die. True or not true, that is what I believe. He first book of poems works up to this obsession with death. The book of poems ends with hope.
Medical History last Five Years
History 2020
All symptoms, and if anything, they are worse. They vary based upon all kinds of factors.
One trip to Mayo Clinic, and nothing has changed except new symptoms. All they can tell me is to wait for it to manifest itself. There are no more tests and no more doctors. Thank the number one hospital in the world. Five visits are enough.
New Symptoms 2020
My brain locks up, and I can not talk. I know what I want to say, but it will not come out of my mouth. I am down 3 to 5 minutes, and then it comes out of me.
I cannot walk and do two things. If I am walking and I try to stir the soup or something on a plate or count something, then I fall left to the right, stop moving forward, and cannot talk. I can move backward then stop doing everything and reset. I can then walk forward.
History 2019
I quit going to doctors in 2019. After 48 doctors for so many things, I am sick of doctors, and I quit going after Mayo Clinic and Vanderbilt appointments at the first of the year. They used the exact same words – You need to wait for it to manifest itself. These issues persist:
Feet hurt, numb, and tingle
Hands hurt, numb and tingle
Neck hurts
Dizzy
Foggy
Forgetful
Slow
Shy away from bright lights
Falling backward or sideways
Unable to announce words, maybe stutter
I have quit chasing the cause of these, and I am just trying to live with them now. I have done an excellent job with reduced symptoms all of 2019 and in the months of August and September, especially. In those months, I had almost no symptoms at all.
I want to go on a new medicine which will cut the edge. I do not know if I have stress or anxiety. When I am off amitriptyline, I am more emotional. I rush to agitation, and frustration is quicker. The anger is not rage but similar without yelling and screaming. Well, George does not think this is a correct statement anymore. My friend and I talked about it being more adrenaline rushes. I am getting pumped up for something. I do not know what?
Jan to Dec– Everything occurs under many different combinations and circumstances
Feb – Joint Specialist
Jan – Blood Clots – hematologist – stay on the blood thinner
Jan -Vein Specialist – nothing to do with four blood clots. The leg will swell and hurt
History 2018
Mayo and Patterson Physical Therapy ( Beth Patterson and Cynthia Thomson) in Jackson, Tennessee, worked on these my knee, calf, and hip, and the majority of the pain have gone away. A combination of shoe orthotics, lost weight, exercise, yoga, and more expensive tennis shoes. I do not consider this a significant issue, just a nuisance.
I went to Mayo Clinic 4 times, and they eliminated all significant organs, diseases, etc. as possible candidates. They believe I have to wait for it to manifest itself into one block for a diagnosis. They took me off amitriptyline and put me on Lexapro – anxiety medicine, but that made my symptoms worse. I got off Lexapro. I went back on amitriptyline until Dec 2019.
I have seen 15 doctors over the past few years for a variety of issues, and I am trying to eliminate problems to find the root cause so I can feel better. All of these sometimes happen all the time, and sometimes one or two at a time. But it is something every day.
Knee hurts
Hip Hurts
Calf Hurts
Feet hurt, numb, and tingle
Hands hurt, numb and tingle
Neck hurts
Dizzy, foggy, forgetful, slow, overwhelmed in crowds, shy away from bright lights
Right foot swells
Right leg knee down swells
History 2017
Jan to June – Everything occurs under many different combinations and circumstances
July – A blood clot in the right leg. Leg stayed swollen for five months
Oct – Lost breath climbing stairs for two weeks went away
Nov – diagnosed Factor 5 … gene disorder causes blood to clot
Dec – MRI to recheck neck and spine – can not find out why lost use of right arm from the elbow down fishing
2016 – Continue to have knee and hip pain but all new issues too
Jan – MS Specialist Vanderbilt – not MS go to a neurologist
Feb – Neurologist Vanderbilt – MRI’s neck brain and spine show no damage or suspensions
Feb to Dec – Everything occurs under many different combinations and circumstances
History 2015
Knee and hip continue to hurt all year
Sept – I felt like I had a heart attack on a Saturday, but it went away after 1 hour. I did not go to the doctor. Thought it was vertigo.
Dec – Neurologist – neuropathy in hands and feet.
Sept to Dec – New issues of hand, feet, and neck pain. Dizziness, falling backward sensation, overwhelming in crowds, fuzzy, hazy
Jackson Doctor sends me to Vanderbilt
History 2014
Two Hip Surgeries – I slipped on ice in Jan, and one surgery to sew it up. The second surgery to replace it.
Blood Clot – I had a blood clot after hip replacement
History 2013
Knee replacement. I had a hard time bending it, and it had to be manipulated once. I finally got it to bend and was getting stronger
Pre – 2013
Three knee surgeries, shoulder surgery, ankle surgery
I have always had problems with my right knee since the age of 15.
