My heart hurts Was it love Or too many desserts Or God from above Does it matter Why I cannot take a breath My heart goes pitter patter Along the path to my death How did I get here After exercising too much Did I cause too much wear Or is this a crutch Did I eat the wrong food Mostly salads and meat Pizza when in the mood Along with something sweet Ice cream and cake Cookie dough with glaze Maybe a shake I did graze Food or exercise The doctors do not know I wonder if they are wise Or trying to collect dough Test after test What do they show Nothing in my chest Maye my heart flow More tests and protocols To see if my veins are clear Just wait for our calls And keep a good cheer Sometimes it is hard To be enthusiastic When you cannot walk the yard Or anything too drastic I cannot breathe when I piss I cannot breathe climbing up the stairs I cannot breathe to walk the block I cannot breathe playing in the pool These are not drastic actions And it is very tough No to have reactions When I cannot get a puff of air I walked 10000 steps daily I lifted weights daily I used the elliptical for 30 minutes daily I performed yoga every two days What happened to me Will it go away Can they fix this stuff Or keep it at bay I do wonder Can it be fixed Or do I go under My thoughts are mixed Issues upon issues Troubles upon troubles Stress upon stress Anxiety upon anxiety Thinking can be worse Worrying for naught Or is this a curse And I got caught Or is it a side effect Of a Covid shot Is there a connect Throwing it all in the pot Heart inflammation They do say Maybe a causation To take me astray My shot in late March My condition sometime in April Is there a connecting arch Or is this gossip or a fable
Author: jcbham
Retreat and Rout
I make too many assumptions Which never work out Maybe mixed presumptions Ending in retreat and a rout Putting everything into one thing All my energy and emotions For a yearlong romantic fling Going through all the motions The regular dating routines And a few extra duties Including helping to clean Anything for my beauties I became a caregiver Helping out with carpools Even cleaning the silver Anything for my jewels I taught after school Doing weekly reading by committee Helping enforce the daily rules Anything for my pretties Little physical chores Picking up and putting up the plates Even cleaning out drawers Anything for my playmates But in the long run It does not matter All is undone A gigantic shatter We break apart Because there is no solution The same problem from the start A matter of the heart Not really love Honor and cherish More push and shove Close to nightmarish Warning signs are there I was a dope Our relationship not fair A sense of false hope Hope for a friend Hope for a companion Hope for a sweetheart Hope for love I wanted it too much I would do anything For someone to touch For a body to cling Not her fault I made the choice Not to halt And use my voice To communicate My feelings Accepting my fate In all my dealings Be honest and straight Stick to the facts Open the floodgate And brace for the impacts Ready to walk away Be courageous and strong Do not waver and sway If it is wrong Too petrified and afraid To face reality Disheartened and dismayed To fight and disagree Who wants confrontation And to dissension Leading to castration And no more attention But sooner or later All will come to an end Bowing to a dictator Instead of being a friend Friends listen Do not judge Or create divisions Stonewall without a budge Who am I talking to But only to me I cannot change a view From another who is free
My Dance
I did not respect my health Keep track of my friends Sharpen and expand my mind Or appreciating my wealth Do I have remorse Concerning all these thoughts A strange force Bothering me a lot Why do they bother me now I have lived a long time Will it change somehow My story rhyme The pace my life progresses In a repetitive motion Failures and successes Indifferences and emotions Up and down Round and round A priest or a clown Mute or with sound What I have learned Is I can fight it But I will get burned Or use my wit Learn the dance Forward and back Retreat and advance Seek peace and attack Dancing is easy Moving to the beat Not at all cheesy Beautiful when expressed The dance presents understanding And maturity Your emotional health is expanding Giving you security Security to be yourself Security to let someone go Security to be alone Security to be alright Alright is not hard Or overrated You can lower your guard Throw away things hated Why walk on eggshells Every step of the way Jump at each bell To keep the family gay Wait to be invited Like a waiting taxicab Feel judged and indicted A jab or a stab Sounds very frightening But all I wish Is emotional enlightening And to dance with a swish Twirl about Skip to the tune These things have no clout I am immune I dance with charming traits Knowing I am good And so much awaits Without any falsehoods Taken for granted Highlighting my faults Their beliefs are slanted But I will waltz To their reverberations And their misrepresentations Dancing on my foundations Forgetting the frustrations My dance is divine To and foe And it is all mine The ebb and flow The coming and going Enjoying the song That rhythm flowing I have grown strong
My Patriot Song
Happy Birthday To our great nation It takes my breath away Both resolute and duration As a republic for the masses We have tried to represent Without stations and classes The founders intent A grand gamble To make people free A strong preamble For the world to see We were the first Many have followed An unquenchable thirst But it can be hard to swallow There are outrages Staring us in the face From our history pages What a disgrace Keeping people in chains A terrible slight Killing the Indians on the plains A horrendous blight Holding women back Not allowing them rights Abortion kills millions of blacks And millions of whites But is this all There is to the United States To miss our call And what separates Separates us from oppression One person with absolute rule Fascism and communism aggression And others of the tyrant pool Our ability to change and flex And to remember distinctly Through our constitutional checks Stating a truth succinctly We are in control The people can altar Through the voting poll When our leaders falter Voting is the right That keeps us strong So we must fight To carry this tradition along Traditions of our glorious past Maybe with a few flaws But we need to hold steadfast To our great cause To make people unbound From whatever oppresses Let us articulate and astound What our history expresses We lead the world In reducing oppression Our flag is unfurled To fight these transgressions Transgressions of injustice Transgressions of poverty Transgressions of race Transgressions of hate We push to correct wrongs Not always timely and correct But sing our proud songs And fix what is not perfect Stand upright and proud Fly our flag high Sing our praises out loud We are not the bad guy But democratic patriots Believing in individual liberties Spreading a brilliant radiance And the endless possibilities Possibilities of prosperity Throughout the earth Seeking a shared destiny For everyone from birth Democracy is not a dream Freedoms advance With our grand theme Join in the dance Celebrate our championships Proclaim our glories Cherish our relationships And tell our remarkable story
Ferocious Tide
Why do I grieve Gave it my all Rewarded with a reprieve To stand alone and tall Reprieve from stress Walking on eggshells A game of chess With no wedding bells More money To spend everyday Milk and honey Spend it my way Travel the world Sights to see Twirl and whirl I am free Drugless My mind works I must confess These are perks Write my rhyming verse Create and produce thought I have beaten the curse No more brain rot Not drugged dumb As a mindless ghoul I have overcome The ceaseless drool But is it all that great To have all this Without a mate To hug and kiss This is why I mourn I have lost my buddy Our love torn My heart muddy I am so conflicted So many upsides I am unrestricted But a ferocious tide So may extremes A passionate obsession I had so many dreams And a confession I miss her She was unique A sweet liqueur An aura of mystique There will be no one like her No one to replace our fun I miss being her chauffeur But we are done She sees no need For a sidekick Independent and freed She is her own chick And this is life Not very equitable and fair Without a wonderful wife And a journey to share A treacherous fate To be alone Which I do hate Nearing my gravestone No reason to seek Another to share I am past my peak Along with my wear and tear Enjoy the positives And all their good yields Eliminate the negatives And their battlefields Slow down Stay true Do not frown Or turn blue The easiest way to enjoy What time is unexpended Be good and a kind boy As God intended