My heart hurts Was it love Or too many desserts Or God from above Does it matter Why I cannot take a breath My heart goes pitter patter Along the path to my death How did I get here After exercising too much Did I cause too much wear Or is this a crutch Did I eat the wrong food Mostly salads and meat Pizza when in the mood Along with something sweet Ice cream and cake Cookie dough with glaze Maybe a shake I did graze Food or exercise The doctors do not know I wonder if they are wise Or trying to collect dough Test after test What do they show Nothing in my chest Maye my heart flow More tests and protocols To see if my veins are clear Just wait for our calls And keep a good cheer Sometimes it is hard To be enthusiastic When you cannot walk the yard Or anything too drastic I cannot breathe when I piss I cannot breathe climbing up the stairs I cannot breathe to walk the block I cannot breathe playing in the pool These are not drastic actions And it is very tough No to have reactions When I cannot get a puff of air I walked 10000 steps daily I lifted weights daily I used the elliptical for 30 minutes daily I performed yoga every two days What happened to me Will it go away Can they fix this stuff Or keep it at bay I do wonder Can it be fixed Or do I go under My thoughts are mixed Issues upon issues Troubles upon troubles Stress upon stress Anxiety upon anxiety Thinking can be worse Worrying for naught Or is this a curse And I got caught Or is it a side effect Of a Covid shot Is there a connect Throwing it all in the pot Heart inflammation They do say Maybe a causation To take me astray My shot in late March My condition sometime in April Is there a connecting arch Or is this gossip or a fable
Day: July 6, 2021
Retreat and Rout
I make too many assumptions Which never work out Maybe mixed presumptions Ending in retreat and a rout Putting everything into one thing All my energy and emotions For a yearlong romantic fling Going through all the motions The regular dating routines And a few extra duties Including helping to clean Anything for my beauties I became a caregiver Helping out with carpools Even cleaning the silver Anything for my jewels I taught after school Doing weekly reading by committee Helping enforce the daily rules Anything for my pretties Little physical chores Picking up and putting up the plates Even cleaning out drawers Anything for my playmates But in the long run It does not matter All is undone A gigantic shatter We break apart Because there is no solution The same problem from the start A matter of the heart Not really love Honor and cherish More push and shove Close to nightmarish Warning signs are there I was a dope Our relationship not fair A sense of false hope Hope for a friend Hope for a companion Hope for a sweetheart Hope for love I wanted it too much I would do anything For someone to touch For a body to cling Not her fault I made the choice Not to halt And use my voice To communicate My feelings Accepting my fate In all my dealings Be honest and straight Stick to the facts Open the floodgate And brace for the impacts Ready to walk away Be courageous and strong Do not waver and sway If it is wrong Too petrified and afraid To face reality Disheartened and dismayed To fight and disagree Who wants confrontation And to dissension Leading to castration And no more attention But sooner or later All will come to an end Bowing to a dictator Instead of being a friend Friends listen Do not judge Or create divisions Stonewall without a budge Who am I talking to But only to me I cannot change a view From another who is free