I learned to sail On a little lake Bring on the gale A piece of cake We flipped And turned We whipped And learned How to sail close reach How to right our boat How to run up on the beach How to sit and float Not terribly hard But full of fun In our backyard And in the sun Friends would ride Along with my dog Jumping from side to side Just like a frog Intentionally capsizing And driving me mad There was no compromising They were annoying and bad I wanted to cruise They wanted to tip I would always lose But it was my ship A little Laser Chasing about A hell raiser Fun no doubt We were young And it was thrilling I was stung Sailing was fulfilling I was mesmerized and hooked The rest of my life and forever more A skill many have overlooked I always miss when ashore The sheets full of the wind The boat rocking up and down Throughout history of mankind Sailors of old necessary playground To travel and trade They would navigate And they were not afraid It was their fate We are tourist On our vessels Not real purist We hide in nestles Where it is secure Until the bad weather passes We are not on a timetable tour Creeping about like molasses Enjoying the swim Fishing and eating Everything a whim Not competing Enjoying life Sailing about No mayhem or strife Sailing the best route Praise on my lips Salute to sailors of old And their necessary trips They were brave and bold
Tag: Journey
End of Game
I have been there Struggling to win Throwing up a prayer Taking it on the chin A strong punch I worked so hard And I feel the crunch My soul and body marred As in the game So many opportunities To win with fame For our communities But it is not finished You may feel it is Do not be diminished Or end with a fizz Take stock in your abilities And know you are strong Reduce your liabilities And sing a happy song There is more time to comeback Life has not ended Pushback and attack Everything will be splendid Remember your durability And your unique traits Hopefulness is not unnecessary futility But a date with our fates Decide to fight For your hereafter The day is bright Sunny with laughter React to your circumstances Enjoy the hear and now Take your chances Stay behind the plow Make your rows straight A strenuous chore No time to wait You can score
All About Today
I am not sure or know If I will waste away and die Every day go with the flow Daily just soar and fly Fly like a bird Enjoy the ride Move ever forward Take life in stride Stride day by day One day at a time Merriment and play A life that will rhyme Rhyme requires two Words that go together Why can it not be you To get me through bad weather I know I know another place And another time it is not right But I want to see your face Side by side through this fight A companion buddy sidekick Who enjoys the journey And we are familiar and klick Through many tourneys We are familiar We are comfortable We are known We are snug Yes it can be hard I can be frustrated Leaving you scarred With words I have stated But you are not perfect Ignoring and hurting me Increasing the conflict But let us agree to disagree All the naming and blaming Is a waste of energy and strength I am proclaiming and exclaiming I will go through any length To apologize and to repent I am so so sad Because it is not my hearts intent To be so mean and bad You may not trust me And want me back It is your choice to be free If there was a tiny crack Where we could amend Our life dreams My best friend I wish it is our theme A theme of love A theme of us A theme of care A theme of respect All of the good things Life demands As we soar on our wings Over the badlands We fly in unity Twisting and turning Searching for opportunities For our lifes yearnings Soaring higher and higher Flying unrestricted and liberated I hear the angels choir Beautiful and orchestrated Enjoy the glorious songs On journeys we navigate Easing and erasing our wrongs From our first to our last date
Happy Birthday Again
Birthday Again I have another birthday One more year Let us downplay And save the cheer I have had many good ones I plan to have many more I have eaten cake in tons I have blown out candles galore What is one more celebration We all celebrate them Like the stars in the constellation Routine and another ho hum But what if I say I am kidding I want the display I am admitting Display the cake Display the cards Display the presents Display the smiles Five or Fifty I want the recognition Really cool and nifty Bring on the magician and musician I am happy everyone remembered This special ceremonial occasion Another numbered and rendered Extending my life equation I am delighted my loves are here Kissing and hugging me And I want to hear Happy Birthday sung with glee
Tools to Help me Live
I have struggled for years, and I have searched for tools to help me live better. I want tools to help me learn what triggers my symptoms and how to reset the triggers as quickly as possible.
I have had ongoing issues for years, and no physical defects can be found beyond repaired damage to knee and hips along with blood clots. I have fallen backward; my neck hurts, my head hurts, my eyes get stressed, my head goes blank, my body wobbles, and many other little nuisances. No one has given me solutions to these issues except to drug me up and to make me into a zombie. I don’t particularly appreciate living this way. If anything, this lifestyle drives anxiety and depression, which activates, compounds, and exaggerated my issues.
The diagnosis of Functional Neurological Disorder (FND) opens new avenues to explore, including Cognitive behavior Theory and Dialectical behavior therapy (DBT). I am exploring these two tools, and I am seeking counselors to help me learn these tools and to apply them to my life.
Cognitive behavior therapy (CBT) is based on several core principles, including:
1. Psychological problems are based, in part, on faulty or unhelpful ways of thinking.
2. Psychological problems are based, in part, on learned patterns of unhelpful behavior.
3. People suffering from psychological problems can learn better ways of coping with them, thereby relieving their symptoms and becoming more effective in their lives.
https://www.apa.org/ptsd-guideline/patients-and-families/cognitive-behavioral#
Dialectical behavior therapy (DBT) is a type of cognitive-behavioral therapy. Its main goals are to teach people how to live in the moment, develop healthy ways to cope with stress, regulate their emotions, and improve their relationships with others.
https://www.verywellmind.com/dialectical-behavior-therapy-1067402#citation-1
The Linehan Institute Behavioral Tech. What Is Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT)? 2017.
I plan to write more about my journey, trying to understand these tools and how they are working to make my life better. I will add posts about other tools that I use to help, including breathing exercises, writing, exercising, and yoga—also, a post here and there about God and his provision for me. These tools and exercises do not compete with God. To me, they are the fruit of God’s existence.
I hope they may help you if you have sprouts of anxiety or depression.
Have any of you had any experiences with CBT or DBT? Did it help?