Slave

Slave

I am a slave
To my thoughts
Stuffed in a cave
I had my shots

Stuck here
Wasting away
Not a seer
Wishing to stray

I stayed for a girl
And her daughter
We had a twirl
Not living water

I stayed for my mother
Who is her golden years
Illnesses one after another
Outliving her peers


I stayed for my health
I fight craziness
No problems with wealth
Persistent haziness

A new phenomenon
Snuck up on me
A black swan
A dead sea

I can not inhale
I can not exercise
I can not exhale
I can not energize

Doctors do not know
What is the matter
Go with the flow
Endless chatter

Stuck in this place
Waiting it out
My time and space
I have doubt

Doubt of today
Doubt of relationship
Doubt of future
Doubt of fraternity
A slave to my existence
Waiting for it to end
I am leading the residence
Nothing to pretend

My relationship is over
My health is questionable
My mother will die
My life is debatable

Pretend I might
Fight I must
Chase the light
All in or bust

Fix what is wrong
Seek the solutions
Remain strong
Proclaim resolutions

Resolution to try
Resolutions to strive
Resolution to fly
Resolution to live

Might change your expectations
Might change your attitude
Might rearrange your foundation
Might rearrange your fortitude

It is not finished
It never will be
It is not diminished
It is what you see

See the good
See the opportunities
See your livelihood
See your communities

There is a view
For you to move ahead
It is up to you
You are not dead