I remember
When I was younger
I was a member
And did not hunger
I was strong
I was healthy and fit
I sang a happy song
I had my wit
I did not worry
For my health
I was in a hurry
To make my wealth
This was my affiliation
Make money and win
Part of a capitalistic nation
But this was a sin
To chase money
Forgetting the rest
It was not sunny
Much distress
I wanted it all
But pursuing wealth
Created a great brawl
Lurking with stealth
Destroyed relations
Forgotten friends
Missed donations
Not making amends
Strained relationships
Desensitized to everyone
Emotionless trip
Kindness and empathy none
Emotions scattered
Health in ruin
Definitely battered
Ready to be done in
Life falls apart
Little by little
Leading to a bad heart
So brittle
But I am an associate
Paying taxes and voting
A member of our capitalist state
But I am not gloating
I forgot the truth
I forgot the guidelines
I forgot the nursery rhymes
I forgot the wisdom books
A wealth of knowledge
I learned long ago
I must acknowledge
I did know
Charity
Forgiveness
Compassion
Moderation
Why did I not
Live a life
That I was taught
Without conflict and strife
Was I needy
Was I selfish
Was I greedy
Was I foolish
Yes
I can agree
I made a mess
I was privileged and free
Why did I need more
Why could I not be happy
Why did I war
Why was I snappy
Who cares
All that is gone
Drop your airs
Today is a new dawn
Life is here
And kind
Listen and hear
Open your mind
To another earth
One of jubilation
Allowing a rebirth
Out of damnation
To a life of fraternity
Remembering community
Now and for eternity
My new opportunity
Time spent
Time lost
Time went
Time tossed
She was the one
I could love
She was the sun
I write of
Beautiful
Funny
Intelligent
Nurturing
Just as in a day
The sun sets
Everything turns gray
Blackness forgets
The warmth
The laughs
The smiles
The togetherness
You lose your way
You forget the daylight
You wander astray
You take flight
Fly away
Hide away
Stay away
Run away
Less stress
To run and hide
Less mess
Easier on my pride
I am not wrong
I am not mistaken
I am not amiss
I am not wrongheaded
I was slighted
I was insulted
I was uninvited
I was not consulted
Was it necessary
Was it essential
Was it contrary
Was it sequential
No
Not at all
To go toe to toe
And to hit a wall
Now in darkness
Stumbling about
Nothing but starkness
No way out
I am alone
With my thoughts
And a slight moan
My stomach in knots
I will wander
Seeking reality
I will ponder
What is the key
The key to fellowship
The key to friendship
The key to relationship
The key to life
Almost complete
Running out of time
Cannot cheat
Not in my prime
Stumble along
While everyone is asleep
Try to be strong
Do not weep
Understand
After every night
Sun comes to the land
So struggle and fight
Say hello
Wear a smile
Do not judge others
Just love and accept
I do not know
Does it really matter
The ongoing show
Life and dreams in tatter
My brain goes dead
My eyes are hurt by sunlight
My sudden falls I dread
My words are not right
A rare disease
A common anxiety
Just please please
Not so much variety
Give me a concern
Give me a fight
Give me a turn
Give me the right
Right to control
Right to fix
Right to be whole
Right to end the conflicts
Conflicts of doubt
Conflicts of pain
Conflicts to act out
Conflicts of strain
I am tired
What is worse
A life expired
Or alone in the universe
I am not afraid to die
Jesus is there
It is not a lie
In the Lord’s care
I afraid to be alone
It is stressful
A great unknown
Very distressful
Why why why
Can I not be content
I want to cry
A great torment
Tormented by what
No human touch
Not clear cut
Or just too much
Do I smother
Do I overwhelm
One after another
Making it my realm
Drive people away
Make them afraid
To share and play
My torments are homemade
I cannot understand
A balanced life together
I demand and demand
All to be hooked by a tether
Can I change
Find a way
To rearrange
My greatest dismay
Confined in solitary
I have friends
We can be merry
But that where it ends
No one to dance
No companionship
No romance
No courtship
I have tried
I have bailed
I have cried
I have failed
It is my fate
To go one more time
Is it too late
To make my life rhyme
Be told
Be courageous
Be bold
It is advantageous
I am not sure or know
If I will waste away and die
Every day go with the flow
Daily just soar and fly
Fly like a bird
Enjoy the ride
Move ever forward
Take life in stride
Stride day by day
One day at a time
Merriment and play
A life that will rhyme
Rhyme requires two
Words that go together
Why can it not be you
To get me through bad weather
I know I know another place
And another time it is not right
But I want to see your face
Side by side through this fight
A companion buddy sidekick
Who enjoys the journey
And we are familiar and klick
Through many tourneys
We are familiar
We are comfortable
We are known
We are snug
Yes it can be hard
I can be frustrated
Leaving you scarred
With words I have stated
But you are not perfect
Ignoring and hurting me
Increasing the conflict
But let us agree to disagree
All the naming and blaming
Is a waste of energy and strength
I am proclaiming and exclaiming
I will go through any length
To apologize and to repent
I am so so sad
Because it is not my hearts intent
To be so mean and bad
You may not trust me
And want me back
It is your choice to be free
If there was a tiny crack
Where we could amend
Our life dreams
My best friend
I wish it is our theme
A theme of love
A theme of us
A theme of care
A theme of respect
All of the good things
Life demands
As we soar on our wings
Over the badlands
We fly in unity
Twisting and turning
Searching for opportunities
For our lifes yearnings
Soaring higher and higher
Flying unrestricted and liberated
I hear the angels choir
Beautiful and orchestrated
Enjoy the glorious songs
On journeys we navigate
Easing and erasing our wrongs
From our first to our last date
Feel
What does a baby feel
In the womb or newborn
Joy and pain are real
The debate is torn
Torn between alive or what
A newborn is alive
There is no but
It can live and strive
What about a fetus
In the womb
Do you have a treatise
Or do you leave the room
No regard for science
It is living
Against your defiance
Answers are missingWhen does the heartbeat
Not months but weeks
Six weeks like a drumbeat
The heart speaks
When the heart stops
We are declared dead
The blood flow drops
And life has fled
If you are born
You are alive with heartbeats
But not if you are unborn
Who cares if it repeats
Then comes your nervous process
Developing soon after the heart starts
Reflexes begin to progress
And pain is its counterpart
Yes pain is present
In the womb
Many will dissent
But it is not your gloom or doom
Babies move away from the intruder
Babies shrink from the abortions tools
Babies jerk from the pursuer
Babies not understanding the rules
How about brain waves
The fetus starts around forty days
We are on our way to our graves
If our brains are not ablaze
What is life
A heartbeat
A nervous system
A brain wave
I want all three
Many will disagree
But they are free
To argue with me
