I make too many assumptions
Which never work out
Maybe mixed presumptions
Ending in retreat and a rout
Putting everything into one thing
All my energy and emotions
For a yearlong romantic fling
Going through all the motions
The regular dating routines
And a few extra duties
Including helping to clean
Anything for my beauties
I became a caregiver
Helping out with carpools
Even cleaning the silver
Anything for my jewels
I taught after school
Doing weekly reading by committee
Helping enforce the daily rules
Anything for my pretties
Little physical chores
Picking up and putting up the plates
Even cleaning out drawers
Anything for my playmates
But in the long run
It does not matter
All is undone
A gigantic shatter
We break apart
Because there is no solution
The same problem from the start
A matter of the heart
Not really love
Honor and cherish
More push and shove
Close to nightmarish
Warning signs are there
I was a dope
Our relationship not fair
A sense of false hope
Hope for a friend
Hope for a companion
Hope for a sweetheart
Hope for love
I wanted it too much
I would do anything
For someone to touch
For a body to cling
Not her fault
I made the choice
Not to halt
And use my voice
To communicate
My feelings
Accepting my fate
In all my dealings
Be honest and straight
Stick to the facts
Open the floodgate
And brace for the impacts
Ready to walk away
Be courageous and strong
Do not waver and sway
If it is wrong
Too petrified and afraid
To face reality
Disheartened and dismayed
To fight and disagree
Who wants confrontation
And to dissension
Leading to castration
And no more attention
But sooner or later
All will come to an end
Bowing to a dictator
Instead of being a friend
Friends listen
Do not judge
Or create divisions
Stonewall without a budge
Who am I talking to
But only to me
I cannot change a view
From another who is free
I did not respect my health
Keep track of my friends
Sharpen and expand my mind
Or appreciating my wealth
Do I have remorse
Concerning all these thoughts
A strange force
Bothering me a lot
Why do they bother me now
I have lived a long time
Will it change somehow
My story rhyme
The pace my life progresses
In a repetitive motion
Failures and successes
Indifferences and emotions
Up and down
Round and round
A priest or a clown
Mute or with sound
What I have learned
Is I can fight it
But I will get burned
Or use my wit
Learn the dance
Forward and back
Retreat and advance
Seek peace and attack
Dancing is easy
Moving to the beat
Not at all cheesy
Beautiful when expressed
The dance presents understanding
And maturity
Your emotional health is expanding
Giving you security
Security to be yourself
Security to let someone go
Security to be alone
Security to be alright
Alright is not hard
Or overrated
You can lower your guard
Throw away things hated
Why walk on eggshells
Every step of the way
Jump at each bell
To keep the family gay
Wait to be invited
Like a waiting taxicab
Feel judged and indicted
A jab or a stab
Sounds very frightening
But all I wish
Is emotional enlightening
And to dance with a swish
Twirl about
Skip to the tune
These things have no clout
I am immune
I dance with charming traits
Knowing I am good
And so much awaits
Without any falsehoods
Taken for granted
Highlighting my faults
Their beliefs are slanted
But I will waltz
To their reverberations
And their misrepresentations
Dancing on my foundations
Forgetting the frustrations
My dance is divine
To and foe
And it is all mine
The ebb and flow
The coming and going
Enjoying the song
That rhythm flowing
I have grown strong
I do not know who you are
You talk three hours through a screen
We did debate and spar
Not ugly or mean
We played with each other
And talked and talked
We enjoyed one another
Our emotions not locked
But what happened that very day
You did not respond or communicate
You replied with nothing to say
Causing me much frustration
You sent a positive message
You missed me as a companion
I thought we had a shot
My plight was not a deep canyon
I raced to see you
To talk to you in person
So much hope to renew
Only to worsen
You would not see me
You would not talk
Address my plea
What a shock
You did not want to come out
And tell me your troubles
And what this was about
My apprehension doubles
Why did you call the night before
Why did we flirt and play
Why did you spend 3 hours on the phone
Why did you act like the good old days
But I learned reality
You came outside
And said you were free
And your position was clarified
You did not see us long term
You did not want to lead me on
You were very definite and firm
You did not want me as a pawn
It was hard for me to listen
I was denied and rejected
Your tears did glisten
I pleaded and objected
Holding you tight
You were so frail
It was the end of the night
And I took flight
As I drove away
I realized so much
And knew it his way
Our life would be dutch
No more togetherness
No more reliance
No more dependence
No more shared memories
Two lives afloat
In our own little ships
Circling in a moat
On our own trips
The next day I realized
We are good friends
My memories prized
And I wanted to make amends
We can be pals and mates
Open to conversation
Definitely no romantic dates
And no long term relations
We can be kind
And we can be heartfelt
All a matter of the mind
And the cards we are dealt
Friends for life
What does that mean
Not husband and wife
A future unseen
Family
Do you enjoy
Your family
Or is it a ploy
Or an anomaly
A ploy to get money
A ploy to get affection
A ploy to be funny
A ploy for connection
A connection to what
A connection to who
A connection in my gut
A connection made of glue
Join us together
Fasten us to each other
A common tether
Mother or brother
Is this common
Is this normal
Is this unusual
Is this irregular
No it is not
For many to live
Relatives not forgot
Families to thriveWhat is the common thread
Families to proceed
Is it the homestead
Or blood of a family creed
A creed to love
A creed to support
A creed to encourage
A creed to equally share
Generation to generation
Forgive one another
Give for the duration
Smother and smother
Smother with love
Smother with kindness
Smother with resources
Smother with mercy
Mercy is the hardest
When we feel wronged
But we can harness
By remembering we belonged
Belonged to a family line
Belonged to a congregation
Belonged to the vine
Belonged to a narration
A narration to work together
A narration to read
A narration to learn
A narration to believe
Believe in God
Believe in kin
Believe all are flawed
Believe we all sin
Sin is there
Every single day
Repent with prayer
Believe and pray
God is first
Family second
Our nation third
And there is no fourth
Align on one
Read the one
Learn the one
Worship the one
Forgive those in two
Love those in two
Show mercy to those in two
Share with those in two
Honor those in three
Respect those in three
Support those in three
Affirm those in three
Teach yours these
Time and time again
These are the keys
Our family will remain
Birthday Again
I have another birthday
One more year
Let us downplay
And save the cheer
I have had many good ones
I plan to have many more
I have eaten cake in tons
I have blown out candles galore
What is one more celebration
We all celebrate them
Like the stars in the constellation
Routine and another ho hum
But what if I say
I am kidding
I want the display
I am admitting
Display the cake
Display the cards
Display the presents
Display the smiles
Five or Fifty
I want the recognition
Really cool and nifty
Bring on the magician and musician
I am happy everyone remembered
This special ceremonial occasion
Another numbered and rendered
Extending my life equation
I am delighted my loves are here
Kissing and hugging me
And I want to hear
Happy Birthday sung with glee
