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Category: Conrad Birmngham

Torment

 I do not know
 Does it really matter
 The ongoing show
 Life and dreams in tatter
  
 My brain goes dead
 My eyes are hurt by sunlight
 My sudden falls I dread
 My words are not right
  
 A rare disease
 A common anxiety
 Just please please
 Not so much variety
  
 Give me a concern
 Give me a fight
 Give me a turn
 Give me the right
  
 Right to control
 Right to fix
 Right to be whole
 Right to end the conflicts
  
 Conflicts of doubt
 Conflicts of pain
 Conflicts to act out
 Conflicts of strain
  
 I am tired
 What is worse
 A life expired
 Or alone in the universe
  
 I am not afraid to die
 Jesus is there
 It is not a lie
 In the Lord’s care
  
 I afraid to be alone
 It is stressful
 A great unknown
 Very distressful
  
 Why why why
 Can I not be content
 I want to cry
 A great torment
  
  
 Tormented by what
 No human touch
 Not clear cut
 Or just too much
  
 Do I smother
 Do I overwhelm
 One after another
 Making it my realm
  
 Drive people away
 Make them afraid
 To share and play
 My torments are homemade
  
 I cannot understand
 A balanced life together
 I demand and demand
 All to be hooked by a tether
  
 Can I change
 Find a way
 To rearrange
 My greatest dismay
  
 Confined in solitary
 I have friends
 We can be merry
 But that where it ends
  
 No one to dance
 No companionship
 No romance
 No courtship
  
 I have tried
 I have bailed
 I have cried
 I have failed
  
 It is my fate
 To go one more time
 Is it too late
 To make my life rhyme
  
 Be told
 Be courageous
 Be bold
 It is advantageous

All About Today

   
 I am not sure or know
 If I will waste away and die
 Every day go with the flow
 Daily just soar and fly
  
 Fly like a bird
 Enjoy the ride
 Move ever forward
 Take life in stride
  
 Stride day by day
 One day at a time
 Merriment and play
 A life that will rhyme
  
 Rhyme requires two
 Words that go together
 Why can it not be you
 To get me through bad weather
  
 I know I know another place
 And another time it is not right
 But I want to see your face
 Side by side through this fight
  
 A companion buddy sidekick
 Who enjoys the journey
 And we are familiar and klick
 Through many tourneys
  
 We are familiar
 We are comfortable
 We are known
 We are snug
  
 Yes it can be hard
 I can be frustrated
 Leaving you scarred
 With words I have stated
  
 But you are not perfect
 Ignoring and hurting me
 Increasing the conflict
 But let us agree to disagree
  
  
 All the naming and blaming
 Is a waste of energy and strength
 I am proclaiming and exclaiming
 I will go through any length
  
 To apologize and to repent
 I am so so sad
 Because it is not my hearts intent
 To be so mean and bad
  
 You may not trust me
 And want me back
 It is your choice to be free
 If there was a tiny crack
  
 Where we could amend
 Our life dreams
 My best friend
 I wish it is our theme
  
 A theme of love
 A theme of us
 A theme of care
 A theme of respect
  
 All of the good things
 Life demands
 As we soar on our wings
 Over the badlands
  
 We fly in unity
 Twisting and turning
 Searching for opportunities
 For our lifes yearnings
  
 Soaring higher and higher
 Flying unrestricted and liberated
 I hear the angels choir
 Beautiful and orchestrated
  
 Enjoy the glorious songs
 On journeys we navigate
 Easing and erasing our wrongs
 From our first to our last date

Feel

Feel
 
What does a baby feel
In the womb or newborn
Joy and pain are real
The debate is torn
 
Torn between alive or what
A newborn is alive
There is no but
It can live and strive
 
What about a fetus
In the womb
Do you have a treatise
Or do you leave the room
 
No regard for science
It is living
Against your defiance
Answers are missing
 
When does the heartbeat
Not months but weeks
Six weeks like a drumbeat
The heart speaks
 
When the heart stops
We are declared dead
The blood flow drops
And life has fled
 
If you are born
You are alive with heartbeats
But not if you are unborn
Who cares if it repeats
 
Then comes your nervous process
Developing soon after the heart starts
Reflexes begin to progress
And pain is its counterpart
 
Yes pain is present
In the womb
Many will dissent
But it is not your gloom or doom
 
Babies move away from the intruder
Babies shrink from the abortions tools
Babies jerk from the pursuer
Babies not understanding the rules
 
How about brain waves
The fetus starts around forty days
We are on our way to our graves
If our brains are not ablaze
 
What is life
A heartbeat
A nervous system
A brain wave
 
I want all three
Many will disagree
But they are free
To argue with me  

Sailing the Lee

Sailing the Lee
 
I have sailed
Along the lee shore
Sometimes jailed
A situation not to ignore
 
I cannot escape
The wind pushing me hard
Unable to make my sail shape
Act quick or my boat scarred
 
Wrecked upon the rocks
Wrecked upon the reef
Wrecked upon the shoal
Wrecked upon the beach
 
Why keep the boat
Why not swim away
Why not jump and float
Why not go your way
 
I hate to leave my vessel
A good looking ship
Easy to sail and wrestle
Wrestle and ride on a trip
 
Or wasting my life
Hoping to reach or tack
To a safe point with no strife
With wind to my back
 
But where is the fun
Where is the excitement
A blast compared to none
Enticement and incitement
 
Close hauled along the edge
Water breaking over the bow
I have not hedged or pledged
To give up and quit now
 
Flying through the water
The boat lifted high
There is a breakwater
Safety is nearby
 
But why oh why
Do I reduce sail
Or tack and glide by
Using the gale
 
I will miss the challenge
I will miss my love
I will miss the satisfaction
I will miss the gratification
 
There is nothing like her
There is nothing to compare
There are emotions to stir
There are moments to share
 
I plan to sail on
Catching the wind
Until the emotion is gone
Or just left behind
 
Behind in the docks
Or on its trailer
Or sitting on blocks
Missing its sailor
 

Family

Family
 
Do you enjoy
Your family
Or is it a ploy
Or an anomaly
 
A ploy to get money
A ploy to get affection
A ploy to be funny
A ploy for connection
 
A connection to what
A connection to who
A connection in my gut
A connection made of glue
 
Join us together
Fasten us to each other
A common tether
Mother or brother
 
Is this common
Is this normal
Is this unusual
Is this irregular
 
No it is not
For many to live
Relatives not forgot
Families to thrive
 
What is the common thread
Families to proceed
Is it the homestead
Or blood of a family creed
 
A creed to love
A creed to support
A creed to encourage
A creed to equally share
 
Generation to generation
Forgive one another
Give for the duration
Smother and smother
 
Smother with love
Smother with kindness
Smother with resources
Smother with mercy
 
Mercy is the hardest
When we feel wronged
But we can harness
By remembering we belonged
 
Belonged to a family line
Belonged to a congregation
Belonged to the vine
Belonged to a narration
 
A narration to work together
A narration to read
A narration to learn
A narration to believe
 
Believe in God
Believe in kin
Believe all are flawed
Believe we all sin
 
Sin is there
Every single day
Repent with prayer
Believe and pray
 
God is first
Family second
Our nation third
And there is no fourth
 
Align on one
Read the one
Learn the one
Worship the one
 
Forgive those in two
Love those in two
Show mercy to those in two
Share with those in two
 
Honor those in three
Respect those in three
Support those in three
Affirm those in three
 
Teach yours these
Time and time again
These are the keys
Our family will remain