Battle of Nerves vs Mental

Battle of Nerves vs Mental
 
What to do next
I wander about
I am perplexed
I want to shout
 
Leave me alone
Let me be
I want to moan
But then there is she
 
She is Smart Girl
She will not let me quit
She is a rare precious pearl
She has much grit
 
You are fine
You are curable
Quit your whine
You are endurable
 
Your lungs sing a song
Your heart is exceptionally good
Your muscles are strong
You are a forest of maple wood
 
You fall and almost fall
You have bouts and seasons
Where you hit a wall
Without any reasons
 
No one has diagnosed you
Telling you anything
No reason to worry and stew
Anxiety and depression sting
 
Worse than your illness
Quit being an awful bore
Live each day in its brilliance
Open the morning door and roar
 
Life is noble and grand
Life is pleasing and sweet
Life is unexplored land
Life is a delicious treat
 
Smart Girl wants to pursue
Conversion disorder and
Functional neurological disorder
Which is fine with me
 
The brain and nervous mechanisms
Do not efficiently communicate
Resulting in many schisms
In my neurological state
 
Somewhere between nerves and mental
Everyone knows I am crazy
But let us not be judgmental
We all can be a little hazy
 
Good news I believe
Continue the medical journey
Looking for reprieve
After six years of a debilitating tourney
 
What is a year or two more
Smart Girl motivates me
To continue the unfair war
And I agree