I do not know Does it really matter The ongoing show Life and dreams in tatter My brain goes dead My eyes are hurt by sunlight My sudden falls I dread My words are not right A rare disease A common anxiety Just please please Not so much variety Give me a concern Give me a fight Give me a turn Give me the right Right to control Right to fix Right to be whole Right to end the conflicts Conflicts of doubt Conflicts of pain Conflicts to act out Conflicts of strain I am tired What is worse A life expired Or alone in the universe I am not afraid to die Jesus is there It is not a lie In the Lord’s care I afraid to be alone It is stressful A great unknown Very distressful Why why why Can I not be content I want to cry A great torment Tormented by what No human touch Not clear cut Or just too much Do I smother Do I overwhelm One after another Making it my realm Drive people away Make them afraid To share and play My torments are homemade I cannot understand A balanced life together I demand and demand All to be hooked by a tether Can I change Find a way To rearrange My greatest dismay Confined in solitary I have friends We can be merry But that where it ends No one to dance No companionship No romance No courtship I have tried I have bailed I have cried I have failed It is my fate To go one more time Is it too late To make my life rhyme Be told Be courageous Be bold It is advantageous
